The Pain Will Slowly Fade, & The Happiness Will Set In

I can't believe how you play your games. I am not the only one to see the truth. But it kills me to see that your running your game on someone else, that you will put her through the same stuff you did to me. It kills to know everything you believed in, everything you put your heart in was a joke. That you were living a double life, and that the other one turned out to be what you wanted. It kills to remember those nights you cried in my arms, about how i was the perfect girl for you, that you NEVER wanted anyone else and you do not know how you could survive without me. Then why did you do what you did? Why would you go through all the stuff we went through, the drama, the pain, only to be living a happy life with someone else? 
The one thing i need is closure. The one thing i need is answers, as to why things happened the way they did. I know it wasn't my fault, i know i did not falter within our relationship and this is all on you. I just cannot understand how a person can live their lives and be happy with where they stand. Be happy knowing the pain they cause on others, be happy living multple lives, lying to those closest to you, and wake up every morning doing your thing.

It disgusts me to think of you in general let alone everything that has happened. I am happy to know i will have the chance to be with a REAL man and be happy sooner or later. To know that at least this happened now, and not when we were married. I only wish someone informed me earlier, that someone could of spared me the pain as im trying to do that for her. I try to explain the way he is, that NO ONE knows this guy the way i do, the way he runs his game and hurts those people in his life. I want to be the girl i wanted to have open up my eyes to the truth. She is under his spell now, and can't accept it. She believes im just jealous & trying to ruin what they have. But i see the lies, i see the bull he is playing on her, its all what he did to me. No matter what i say, the proof i give, she believes his lies he spills. I guess she will have to have her heart broken to realize the truth. I guess she will have to crumble to the ground to know what a horrible person this man truly is. We are blind when it comes to situations in our lives and people. We are blind to the fact we believe things in life, that people are good and will treat as that way, when in reality that is not true. It comes to the point who do we trust anymore? Who is the person we can fully commit to and know in our hearts and minds its mutual? Because so many people give all they have for someone to just hurt them. It questions each action, each person we meet and each situation we get ourselves involved with. We are growing older and there is no need for games anymore, we are not in high school, we are not children. It boggles my mind why people must lie, why people must cheat, and how they feel its acceptable. No matter the type of person you are, if the honesty is there it makes you be looked at as a better person. So many people i have met lately have told me that they dont like relationships and just want to hook up with girls and have fun. Yes, that's kinda nasty, but at least they are the type of person to fully understand who they are and what they want. They are the type of people that are mature enough to understand the situations of our life, and those are the type of people that don't play games.

Now i don't want a guy like that, i want a man who is honest, loving, caring and sweet and who is ready to commit and create a future of happiness. Where at the end of every day, no matter if there was a fight, we can look at what we have & know this is the real deal. This is something amazing and it's not just some chapter in our lives, it's the whole story.